Sometimes I feel like the break I’m attempting to take from being in a LDR just isn’t working. Nothing has changed and my emotions are right back where they were before I decided I needed a break. A break in words alone is no break at all.

Mike, I know you’re going to read this. So theres that. You will probably get upset and want to talk to me about this which is fine, but it’s my blog none the less so I’m going to keep on talking about this.

I still feel like I’m living some sort of weird double life. Mike-time and Rest-of-the-time. If I’m not at work I’m talking to Mike, camming with mike, playing games with mike. Whatever. It’s great and I love it, but it’s not what I need to be doing. I do not want to sever this all together, but maybe I should. My heart hurts. It hurts all the time.

For one reason or another and I don’t like it.

[Listen To Me]