My life is a bit backwards at the moment. Last week I hurt my back. The muscles in my lumbar are having massive spasms and I’m a bit disabled. I was off work for five days and yesterday was my first day back. I’m a Barista, remember? It’s incredibly hard to be efficient when you can’t bend over. None the less, I’m taking muscle relaxers and pain killers until it can heal itself but I feel as though this isn’t going to help as long as I’m still moving and using the muscles.

Not only that, but my ex-boyfriend, M is likely flying into town tomorrow. He had moved to Idaho for work but is now applying for jobs here so he can move back. He has some interviews and wants to see me.

I agreed to maybe have dinner with him and catch up. I’m not entirely sure what to expect and I’m nervous about it. I don’t know what to expect. I know he hasn’t gotten over me and I’m not entirely sure I’m “over” him, but I have been seeing other people. I know that he hasn’t.

I hope this doesn’t blow up in my face. I guess we’ll see.

Then again, he may not be coming into town at all, so maybe I should just stop worrying about it and roll with the punches.