Ok. Well.. It’s been a minute. Or actually more than a minute.

I’ve figured out how to connect my Das Keyboard (It’s blank I’ll have you know) into my latest tablet.

My latest tablet was a gift from my husband, Michael, because I love to read.

However, I cannot read paper books anymore because at 34 I was diagnosed with macular degeneration. that’s fun. My eyes are pretty but they don’t work ..

So.

I have a lot to catch you up on. You = readers.

Do I even still have readers anymore?

My mother died last August.

My rescue dog, that I’ve had for 6 years, is currently 15 (thank you Embark!) and has bladder cancer. I just found out two days ago her cancer has metastasized.

My Father (and I through my twenties) live(d) on a farm in Santa Cruz. The owner of that farm was like a grandfather to me and an older brother to my father. He died yesterday.

I realize I’m struggling but I realize what I’m missing the most is my writing.

I have little moments of beauty where I think of a wonderful way to explain what I’m seeing or what I’m feeling and I have no way to express it.

So. what’s going to happen in my life?

Well I’m a federal employee and I’m scared. I’ve received many notifications (I see more on reddit than I get through email) and they freak me out.

I’m worried for my father because well shit is scary for him.

But what I really downloaded WordPress app for was to talk about my grief.

More incoming.