Author: Amb A Sinner

Amb A Sinner https://ambasinner.wordpress.com If beauty is pain, violence is makeup.

Nope!

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Today has not turned out as excellent as I had hoped it would.

Actually today has absolutely sucked.

I fought with M the drunk driving friend. I got stuck in traffic. My car was acting all crazy and actually died as I pulled into a parking spot at the gas station.

I have a ridiculous headache.

My painting is just.. not right. I can’t focus on it and it’s frustrating.

I think I need to be more of a hermit and quit spreading myself so thin emotionally. I guess that’s what happens when you like people who don’t like you and people who like you, you don’t like. Something like that, anyway.

Blog, Paint, Music, Movies, Food, Lazy Sunday.

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I might just stay in bed all day.

My Saturday was interesting.

WP just ate my post again. This is getting old fast. I will give you a quick recap since I can’t really be bothered to rewrite everything.

I worked yesterday. It was slow. There were two events going on outside of work that kept my regulars from seeing me.

H came in about 30 minutes before my shift was over and I learned how to make a surfer on acid. Fun.

I watched movies and ate pizza with Q afterwards.

After that I went over to a friends house to see him and some other friends. They were drunk so I left.

M was there and decided he was going to follow me home? I don’t fucking know. He stopped at the convenience store the same time I did. I drove his drunk ass home and am now going to be disconnecting from that situation.

I’m painting today! One painting will hopefully be completed and the other will be mostly finished if I do this right.

I have nothing to do today and it’s fantastic.

I updated.

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I really did.

WordPress ATE it.

I will give you the short and skinny:

I work three days a week. I have four days off. I still haven’t managed to do more than half a painting and one quick sketch on another. I’ve been reluctant to put away my paint supplies because I so desperately want to just sit at home and paint and not give a damn about the rest of the world.

But I do.

All of my now free time has been occupied piece by piece due to the fact that I’ve been a workaholic for many days.

I only work at the bar, I no longer work as a Barista.

I have ideas flowing forth and I can’t even find the time to put them to paper.

It’s hard.

Work is easy.

Having money is fantastic.

This is only what I’m feeling on the surface.

Slow water’s run deep? What can I say, I am a Scorpio.

My exboyfriend has moved back into town. My current interest seems to be not as interested in me as I am in him. I just want me me me me me me me em me time but I seem to treat my time as though it’s valueless.

I don’t get enough sleep.

Work again tomorrow, then who knows what.

Insanity!!

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Just kidding. My life has been all kinds of crazy since re-entering the work place. I put in my two-weeks notice at Starbucks, so after the 11th I will no longer have to do the one thing I’m best at and the one thing I hate the most; make coffee.

Today I’m painting. What am I painting? The same ol’ crazy things I always end up painting. Here’s my work station.. and yes I call it that because it doesn’t stay this way all the time.

Painting Station

It gets the job done. You can see my paints, my mediums, my brushes, my pads, etc etc etc. The only thing you can’t see is the weird lap easel I use and my energy drink and ashtray on another tub/table to my right. I’m excited to see what comes of this 🙂

Ketosis and Weight Loss

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I’m looking to put my body into ketosis (known in the future as ‘keto’) and give up carbs and lose some weight while I do it.

Day 1: Fuck yeah Keto! I can do this no problem.

There were problems. Go figure. First of all my diet is very carb heavy. I can’t help it, it’s the way I was raised so my meal planning has a lot of bread and potatoes involved. Secondly, anyone I spoke to about it immediately jumped to, “It can kill you!” “It will ruin your kidney’s!” “You brain needs carbs!”

I immediately freak out about the kidney issue. I’ve had kidney issues before but generally due to severe dehydration which effects everyone’s  kidneys.

I do homework. Decide not to remove carbs, just considerably lower my carb intake. 50g a day. See how it goes. Adjust as needed.

Back on the keto wagon. I’m excited. I don’t have much to lose, but once it’s gone I will feel 100 times better about my appearance.

That is damn important.