I don’t know exactly how I fell out of updating my blog. I was on such a good run! I think the sunshine and all the outdoor stuff might have had something to do with it. Possibly. Most likely.

Mike and I are ‘broken up’ but things are ‘complicated’ between him and I. However we have resolved any issues about it and are very amicable and still in a good place.

So theres that. I will update more I promise.

I really don’t have a good subject line for this. In the fight to stay honest and put everything on my mind ‘out there’ I told Mike that I needed a break from ‘us’. I needed to find myself, make sure I know what I want out of life, and recoup. That I am feeling very thinly spread being in a LDR and that it sucks and my quality of life has gotten away from me.

So now I’m single. That’s what I wanted right?

I think I’ve been depressed since I got home from Oregon. Slowly but surely it has been overwhelming me and at this point at least I can say I acknowledge it. Even if I don’t like it. It’s not that I’m unhappy here, because that isn’t the case, but I’m just SO much happier there. Mike makes me so entirely happy that without him in my life everything just seems a little less colorful.

Theres nothing I can really do about it, I can only bide my time. A problem I’m finding though is that I need to save money. And a lot of it. Except that when I’m sad, I drink A LOT, and now I’m spending excessive amounts of money on alcohol to offset my unhappiness, which completely destroys my chance of saving anything.

So now I find myself in a fickle. Any advice?