Disclaimer: My keyboard has been acting up.. so I apologize before-hand for any typos.

I’m feeling really weird lately. Like I have all this energy I don’t know how to get out. My bedroom is driving me a little crazy. It’s not the way I want it to be. I want it to be more organized.. I want things to have a place. My biggest problem concerning that however is that I don’t have the room to accommodate those needs. My TV is in my closet, my coats are hanging next to it, my broke ass laptop is on top of the tv, the TV is on top of one of two racing bucket seats.. and that’s just one small portion of my closet. My dresser has clothes over flowing out of the drawers, and things are all over the top of it.. Knicknacks, my carnival glass, my receiver.. my computer.. my DESK TOP computer, is stacked next to my dresser on the floor. With the huge ass monitor stacked precariously on top of the up-right tower. I hate my small room.

So theres one rant out of the way. Beyond that I made a discovery today. Blu e-Cigarettes. What the F you say? [REDACTED] I want some. I’m buying some. Soon. no more cig smell, yay. no tar, so I will sound like a girl again.. yaaaaaay.

Oregon in 59 days.

I am so good at staying emotionally unattached. To a point. I never start it. Never ever do I start it. I don’t like being sad, even a little bit. Once again, something I didn’t start, but got swept away in, has turned around on me. It’s like men like to jump in head first, then back peddle when it suits them. It’s so confusing to me. So so confusing. I want a users manual, please.

Day two of extreme heat. I can barely handle it. I went into work early yesterday just so i could enjoy the air conditioning. It was 80 until 11pm last night. It peaked at 105F durring the day. Today my dad is dog-sitting a neighbors dog so he can’t drive me into town to buy a kiddie pool.. I’m pretty sad about that. So I just keep hosing myself off hoping I don’t have some sort of heat stroke. At least I woke up early enough today where I didn’t feel the heat immediately.

It’s so hot I have no appetite. I guess that’s a good thing.

I’m completely addicted to rockstars. So completely and utterly addicted. I’m worried I’m going to OD on B vitamins or something. Hahaha. I’m almost done re-reading New Moon. I realize I don’t really like the story past this part. It just gets ridiculous and uninteresting. I really want to read the Cygnet Duology again, but those books are in Oregon. Lots of my things are still in Oregon..

Anyways, only a five hour shift today, and I get to work with Alex again. Yay.

My dad woke me up this morning. Earlier than I would’ve liked, but it was necessary. I could’ve gotten permanent brain damage from the heat that was radiating off the wall next to my bed. Living in a 40ft trailer might be cheap, but there’s a reason for it. It’s so hot right now. Muggy, no cool breeze. I’m hoping it will be cooler in town, but I doubt it. I’m trying to remind myself to update this more.. and my project 365