Happiness

Happiness is a Choice. That’s what I always tell people and myself, and for once I actually listened to myself. Haha. I’m so happy right now I’m having a hard time containing it. Prospects are everywhere and life is good. I’m proud of myself, as I’ve lost 8lbs so far on my diet (yayayay) and things are in general the way I think they should be.

I’m back to being happy alone. I have my own life. I love my life and all the characters who play in it. I think I spent too much time caught in my head instead of just enjoying what was going on around me. I’ve rmembered how to stay present.

One more day..

lydia “one more day” ♫ http://twt.fm/174271

Well I saw you fall back once love.
But I can’t stay.
Stay like this weather swirls,
Cause you’ve become sick like this winter girl.
Two more days, just two more.

Now I see.
Don’t you say that I’ve gone crazy.
Because I haven’t gone crazy yet.
I just lost my mind,
But I still got you.

Stay up late so you’re sure.
Sure that I wont stray too far,
But surely that got too hard.
Love is not for me,
I promise.
One more day, just one more.

I’d Stay If I ever could,
Stay if I ever could.
And pick up your pieces babe,
Cause there’s never a perfect day.

It’s like falling in love all over again..

Remember back in the day when you would buy an album, race home to put it into your player and then just lay and listen to the whole thing while reading the lyrics? How long has it been since you’ve done that? For me, it’s been close to a decade. However, tonight something similar happened, in a viral sense. Because everyone knows I don’t pay for anything I don’t have to pay for..

Anyways, I stumbled upon a gem. Lydia is the band name. Illuminate is the album. I can’t get enough of it. Every song I hear, every lyric I read sends me into a reverie that don’t want to lose.

Rebelling against the stars

I don’t like what my horoscope has to say for today or tomorrow. Mostly because I know it’s true.

Today

Tensions may erupt in close relationships because one of you feels that you have been giving more, and not receiving enough in return, or one of you is more loving or passionate than the other. Frustrated love desire can easily turn to anger or irritability at this time.

You could be too attached to certain emotions, memories, or relationships from your past that could cause a problem in your present relationships. Your emotions will be intense but not very stable today which could lead to difficulties and undesired changes in your current associations and romantic relationships.

Tomorrow

Sadness and disappointments in your personal life are also probable now. Inadequacies and flaws in your friends or lovers can be particularly bothersome to you as well now, and you may feel that you have nearly exhausted your patience for dealing with these problems. It is a time to be quiet and to look objectively at how your relationships are going.

You are full of optimism and enthusiasm for new enterprises and plans. In fact, you may be foolishly over-confident and take on more challenges than you can really meet. This can, in fact, be a very productive time for you if you can keep your expectations within reasonable bounds.

Great.

It is what it is..

That seems to be my mantra lately. “It is what it is.. it is what it is..” It helps a little but I think with more practice differentiating between emotional attachment and entertainment will become easier. I had an ephany with Katie last night that I have no idea what so ever how to date. I never have dated before. I don’t know what the drill is for anything. Dating is what people do in highschool and their late teens. I was with the same person from 16 to 22. I probably have no right seeing anyone right now… but that’s where the whole emotional factor kicks in.

So theres that. Getting my birth certificate to do the licence thing on thursday. Stoked on that one. No work from thursday – tuesday. Yay vacation. My next day off is thursday though.. so this is six days of work in a row. So tired.

So yeah, thursday is the birth certificate. Katie wants to go see roller derby on friday and I’m totally down. Then on the 12th of July we’re hoping to hit up the SEA (safeway employee association) event at Great America because you get all kinds of uber discount or something. July 24th is the Safeway District dine and dance thing.. basically prom for adults. We’re also thinking about crashing that party. 🙂