Soooo my roommate gave me a free HP Stream. Yeah it is not the most bitchin computer to have ever been made, but it is a lap top. That means that I don’t have to go up stairs and boot up my PC, and wait for it to load, and sit in solitude while I update my blog. I’m Really REALLY REALLY excited about this.

Hopefully it helps motivate me to update more. I’m going to see if there is anything I can do to speed it up.. maybe find out what all is running in the back ground.

So fingers crossed.

I was following the pack, all swallowed in their coats
With scarves of red tied ’round their throats
To keep their little heads from falling in the snow
And I turned ’round and there you go
And Michael, you would fall and turn the white snow red
As strawberries in the summertime

My husband is a Michael. Very biblical.. I’m focusing on writing more. Writing in my journal has always been the best type of therapy for me. I keep thinking to myself how could I.. I how could I deal with this.

This being my life of course. My life, what does it matter.. It’s just this one thing that I focus on.

I do. Truly. Again and I again I try and I try to make sure I update my blog.

Unfortunately all I can really think about is the fact that probably no one gives a fuck or reads this anymore. And I’ve gone so long without it that I suddenly don’t enjoy the cathartic feeling it used to have.

On the same note I’ve purchased a nice corner desk, I have my lamp and I my paint supplies all set up so I really don’t have any reason not to update this except my own resignation.

It’s hard to start something once you’ve stopped for as many years as me. Remember when I first started talking about dating M? Well we’ve been together 10 years as of Dec 31. TEN FUCKING YEARS.

I turned 34 this year. Thirty fucking four. Thank god I haven’t had any children or I might feel that a number a lot more than I currently do. Not that I’m anti children, I’m just anti ME having children.

Since I’ve gotten my desk all set up and my computer set up on said desk I’m truly hoping I can make a point of updating at least a couple days a week. It’s good for me, and I truly want to keep track of my life. I feel like I’ve gone a good job until recently (read: two years ago), so I hope maybe I can keep this ships afloat.

Until next time,

xoxoxox
amb

I have had an incredibly productive day. I initially meant to just focus on my happy mail but I got side tracked. I slept in (thank you jesus) and then took a shower. Had an irish coffee. Decided to clean up the craft room. I was outside smoking when I decided that I was going to make use of my clean craft room and wrap up my happy mail..

However the weather was SO gorgeous today I ended up spending my entire day outside working on our yard. Lots of watering and weeding. I transplanted some things out of one pot into a bigger one and have now attempted to clone my creeping jennys. I’m hoping they take, and I’m also hoping my ice plants survive the transplant.

It was a wonderful day over all.

Now that the sun has gone down I decided to work on my happy mail for my BFF and I got her card/collage wrapped up. Tomorrow I will be collecting mail from other mutual friends so I can make her a fun care package. I’m thinking I ought to throw some candy and snacks in there but really she doesn’t need huge things of snacks..

So I’m thinking more along the line of little fun sized candy bars and what have you.

Anyway, that’s it for me. Until next time.