metempsychosis

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I worked from 6:30am to 3:30pm. I came home, relaxed. Drank a coca-cola out of a glass bottle. I came inside and played on the guitar a while, just fiddling and challenging myself. I then went and had a cigarette with my dad while reading my horoscope in this weeks Good Times. Then I decided to walk up the hill to take pictures and look at the ugly tree. I did a lot of thinking and meditation. I found another good energy spot. I haven’t been to my old spot since I first found it. It’s not an easy journey to get to, so it’s something I would like to do earlier in the day. But, I digress..

It’s like I forgot there were things in the world I liked to do besides party until right now. Somewhere along the way I forgot I had passions. At least, once upon a time I did. I feel like I just woke up.

spiral

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It’s interesting how quickly things can change. How feelings you forgot you really had can come bubbling forth after you’ve suppressed them in the most unexpected situations. I’ve had one such week. I was always doing something, and always hoping I’d be around certain people. My head is definitely spinning.

He who hesitates is lost.

I’ve moved back into my weird brooding stage. I don’t know. Maybe this is my bipolar downswing. I just feel like I feel things too intensely for my own good and so I kind of do this shut in thing. I work a lot and don’t go out because I have to work so much. Maybe that’s just being grown up. Hell I don’t know.

The finger tips of my left hand hurts. He left me his guitar.

What the F?

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I am the most slacker ass person I know. Dang. I got my diet pills yesterday, but I forgot to take them. I suck. I’ve managed to not only keep drinking as much as normal, but now I’ve managed to pick up substance abuse too. I rediscovered pot. Ugh. Well at least I don’t eat constantly when I’m stoned. So there’s that.

I got my hair cut. Well, I got my bangs changed. It’s cute. I like it. I need to start avoiding boys. I’m emotionally broken and obviously can’t react the right way.

Moving on however, I officiall have 2g spirals in my ears. I’m so stoked on it. They’re so pretty. My hair is fading out to a weird red bronze color. I really don’t know what to do about it. I’m not going to bother dying it again until before my vacation/birthday party.

I have a shit ton of pictures I need to upload to my picasa account.. and facebook for that matter. I think this coming week I’m not going to go out. I’m just going to stay home and recoup from this last week. I’m so tired.

I have to wake up at 5am for the next four days. Oh joy.

Food

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I love the fact that I’m never hungry. But it also freaks me out because I worry when I don’t eat. I just forced down a hot pocket because the last thing I ate was a bowl of ice cream for breakfast yesterday. I was craving chocolate.. Don’t judge me. 🙂 So far I haven’t lost any weight, but my stomach is flatter which is good for me. I gotta put in my next order ASAP and I might have it expidited because I don’t want to wait forever for shipping. That shit sucks.

Also, I’ve made a web album for my blog: http://picasaweb.google.com/amathriablog

New Hair:

From Just my Face

Oh me oh my

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I’ve thought a lot about blogging.. I’ve just not been doing it. I don’t know why. I guess I just can’t seem to motivate myself. I’ve been doing a whole lot of nothing lately. I think my biggest issue is that I can’t update my blog mobile style. Like.. I can’t show you pictures instantly of what I’m doing, except with twitter, and fuck twitter. Hahaha. I’m such a hypocrit.

I’ve been painting, drawing, doodling, singing, dancing, and just all around living. As best as I can manage. I’m awaiting the arrival of my halloween costume. I received my package from canada. Oh how I love canada. And.. I continue to spend money regardless for the fact that I should be SAVING it. F my life.

On the romantic side of my life, well nothing has really changed. I’m fairly certain I scare boys, though I don’t mean to. Maybe someday someone who I find interesting will step up instead of people who I don’t find interesting.

I dyed my hair red and black today. I didn’t get a chance to get the blonde streaks in, not sure if I want to yet. I might re-dye the red just to make it all the more vivid. For some reason I’m feeling motivated enough to dick around and connect my picasa galleries to this blog. So I’m going to do that now. Pics to come.