That seems to be my mantra lately. “It is what it is.. it is what it is..” It helps a little but I think with more practice differentiating between emotional attachment and entertainment will become easier. I had an ephany with Katie last night that I have no idea what so ever how to date. I never have dated before. I don’t know what the drill is for anything. Dating is what people do in highschool and their late teens. I was with the same person from 16 to 22. I probably have no right seeing anyone right now… but that’s where the whole emotional factor kicks in.

So theres that. Getting my birth certificate to do the licence thing on thursday. Stoked on that one. No work from thursday – tuesday. Yay vacation. My next day off is thursday though.. so this is six days of work in a row. So tired.

So yeah, thursday is the birth certificate. Katie wants to go see roller derby on friday and I’m totally down. Then on the 12th of July we’re hoping to hit up the SEA (safeway employee association) event at Great America because you get all kinds of uber discount or something. July 24th is the Safeway District dine and dance thing.. basically prom for adults. We’re also thinking about crashing that party. 🙂

Well I’m on day two of the induction phase of Atkins. If this shit doesn’t make me lose weight, I’m going to resort to something drastic. But I have faith. So far it isn’t as hard as I thought it would be. I love all the food I’m allowed to eat, and only intaking 20g Carbs sounds harsh.. but it’s really not. Knowing that I’m proactively taking measures to get skinny again is really helping me avoid the alcohol, the soda, and everything else bad for me that I shouldn’t have been indulging in to begin with.

I got a little weight loss tracker.. now if only I can remember to update it. 😀

Maybe going out to dinner with Julian tonight. Not sure how that’s going to work since I work till 8:30 and he’s just coming home from Sac so he might be all tired.

I feel like I’m finally free from the fog. My thoughts are no longered scattered and I can focus. It’s wonderful.

Last night my friends kidnapped me and we all went to see The Hangover. I should say friends/coworkers, because  I work with every single one of them. The movie was great, but I think after all the hype I didn’t find it as funny as I would’ve had I seen it originally.

Yesterday was payday. Yayay. I went to ross and tried on some clothes, and every piece I grabbed didn’t fit. I was like WTF. Of course, one was too big and I didn’t understand how that happened.. fucking ross way to ruin my self esteem!

So I just went and bought two new pairs of sunglasses. Hahaha. Retail therapy is good, and I’ve decided I need to start buying myself a few fun things each pay check or I’m going to forget why I like to work. Staying on the sober wagon for more than a week seems to be an issue, but I’m definitely good on moderation, and no beer. Definitely no beer.