365.. That’s a lot of days

So I just remembered I decided to embark on Project 365 at the beginning of the year and obviously failed as it is already june. Incase you’re curious what exactly Project 365 is well go here and it will tell you all about it. I take pictures all the god damned time on my phone so theres no reason why I can’t just start today instead of January 1st. I figure I’ll just take two pictures a day for the rest of the year… okay so at least one picture. 😀 Check out the links on the right.

.. Until I find a widget type thinger that will post thumbnails. They’re out there, I’m just too lazy to dick with it right now. 🙂

Over the hill

I’m sitting in san jose doing the same thing I would be doing at home and it’s okay. At least his chair is more comfortable. I’m not really bored but I’m also not really entertained. I kind of just want to lay out in the sun which I might do anyway, but then i think about it and change my mind. i feel like I drank too much last night but in all reality i drank much less than I usually do..

I think the fact that I consumed alcohol on an empty stomach is what got me. I seem to be doing that a lot lately.. I just never seem to get a meal in between work and friends. It’s rough. my tummy doesn’t like me right now.

I’m going to Dave and Busters tonight with a bunch of coworkers.. I basically got fandangled into it as I was going to opt out. It’s not that it didn’t sound fun, but just that I wasn’t willing to spend money on it. However, I had three of the five other people going tell me that if I didn’t go they weren’t going to go and I didn’t want to be the big kill joy for the one coworker who is planning everything. Blah. So at this point the plan is to drink and kick as much ass at video games as is possible. Except this time I will eat first.

Yeah yeah yeah..

I can’t handle livejournal. It’s too.. I don’t know. Too impersonal. too full of filler and other things I just don’t care about. That’s not very nice. But I’m not always the nicest person. I don’t feel like I necessarily have to make sense here because it’s not really for anyone but me, and maybe some people who are smart enough to find this link littered somewhere on the internet. I’ve been having a crazy thing happen to me lately. I find I’m happy. I somehow stumbled upon happiness the moment I quit looking for it and had just come to the realization and acceptance that the only thing that’s stable in my life is me. the fact that I’m alive is good too. I’ve also began to entertain this awareness in my head.

I’m not the voice in my head, I’m the awareness. The awareness of the voice inside my head that jabbers at me incessantly about unimportant things. I’ve learned to quiet it.. it’s taken a really long time though. And it wasnt easy and I can’t always do it, but the more I practice practice practice.. the easier it becomes to quiet it.